Not in the mood

I dont feel well tonight

I dont feel talking on the phone with anyone

I did talk to someone but it was not the normal me tonight

I dont make fun a lot

I dont talk a lot of jokes

I dont laugh like i always did

She didnt noticed it

I wished she would never get it

I dont want her to worry

The feeling is killing me 

I wish i was just a normal someone

I wish everything never started

I wish i never lied to anyone 

You know

I would want to see you in my dreams tonight

In my dreams you're mine

I had enough of getting hurt

I wanna smoke tonight

I will do it later

I cant just suffer the days of missing you without cigarette

Throughout these days

I wanna thank cigarettes and alcohols for finding me a way to destress

Someone told me i am a depressed fool

I said What can i do.

I am not well