Busy days

I am so busy these few days.

Studies.

Outings.

Tuitions.

And i am feeling like missing something in my life.

I just dont know what it is.

But i feel empty in me.

Maybe its just in my dreams or whatsoever.

Idk.

My feelings.

Its hard to be described.

Its just too confusing.

=/

I had been trying my best to show my smile everytime.

Even though i am not feeling good deep in me

Still i'll have smile it out.

Having problems in every way.

From love to studies.

I just dont know the way to face it.

That's why i managed everything of my own badly.

Maybe i should just stop doing so much.

Stop thinking too much.

Just let it be.

I'll be having a hotel stay/party tonight.

I'll be happy i told myself.

I'll try.

Leave everything to the god.

I did my best and god will do the rest for me.

=]

There's lots of friends asking me about my long distance relationship with her.

They gave loads of advices and some i disagreed.

One of them asked me to breakup since its so far.

I dont wanna breakup.

I dont feel like doing it,

I had been questioning my loyalty and my love to her.

I know i can do it.

But she's far and i cannot meet her often,

its hard.

the feeling its bad.

i dont know.

still ily

:]

I hope myself will get through all of these tough times and pray for good time ahead.