Disappointment

I'm disappointed

=(

Let's bring it out in this way.

Disappointment

never ran out of my life.

Its like my closest friend to have at all times.

It keep giving me surprises that i can say unexpected/indescribable.

I'm used to telling myself I'm okay

but

the truth is

I never get over it all the time.

Let's hope a new year

makes a better life for me.

Get over every disappointments.

Its okay.

I'm fine.

;(

Wooohooooo

The end of SPM

;)

everything fun is coming towards me

No more clubbing please

no more for me.

=)

Addicted to something else these days.

And btw

Yesterday so sui.

Drove over red light.

Kena caught.

rm20 luckily

HAHAHAHA

XD

14th of December

14th of December

SPM

Byebye!

XD

i miss you ;(

SPM SPM

SPM SPM

ownage!

x)

Need you now- Lady Antebellum

Need you now- Lady Antebellum
Picture perfect memories, Scattered all around the floor.
 Reaching for the phone cause, I can’t fight it any more.
 And I wonder if I ever cross your mind. For me it happens all the time. 
 It’s a quarter after one, I’m all alone and I need you now.
 Said I wouldn’t call  but I lost all control and I need you now. 
 And I don’t know how I can do without, I just need you now.  
Another shot of whiskey, can’t stop looking at the door. 
Wishing you’d come sweeping in the way you did before.
 And I wonder if I ever cross your mind. For me it happens all the time. 
 It’s a quarter after one, I’m a little drunk, And I need you now. 
Said I wouldn’t call but I lost all control and I need you now. 
 And I don’t know how I can do without, I just need you now. 
 Yes I’d rather hurt than feel nothing at all. 
It’s a quarter after one, I’m all alone and I need you now. 
And I said I wouldn’t call but I’m a little drunk and I need you now. 
And I don’t know how I can do without, I just need you now.
 I just need you now. Oh baby I need you now.
I hope i really made the right decision =/

=/

Baby I just don't get it
Do you enjoy being hurt?
I know you smelled the perfume, the make-up on his shirt
You don't believe his stories
You know that they're all lies
Bad as you are, you stick around and I just don't know why

If I was ya man (baby you)
Never worry bout (what I do)
I'd be coming home (back to you)
Every night, doin' you right
You're the type of woman (deserves good thangs)
Fistful of diamonds (hand full of rings)
Baby you're a star (I just want to show you, you are)

You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you

Listen
Your true beauty's description looks so good that it hurts
You're a dime plus ninety-nine and it's a shame
Don't even know what you're worth
Everywhere you go they stop and stare
Cause you're bad and it shows
From your head to your toes, Out of control, baby you know

If I was ya man (baby you)
Never worry bout (what I do)
I'd be coming home (back to you)
Every night doin' you right
You're the type of woman (deserves good thangs)
Fistful of diamonds (hand full of rings)
Baby you're a star (I just want to show you, you are)

You deserve better girl (you know you deserve better)
We should be together girl (baby)
With me and you it's whatever girl, hey!
So can we make this thing ours?

You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you

Let me love you- Mario

I am a different man right now.

Different points of view.

Different ways of handling things.

I chose to be like this.

I had no regrets.

I am not the ever so cheerful guy anymore.

Smiles are fake.

Laughs pretended.

Depressed.

I lost my way.

Where's my future?

Where's my everything?

No more self confidence.

No more love.

I just don't know how to do it anymore.

Don't know how to say it out anymore.

The indescribable disappointment

The unsaid feelings.

Left me searching for an answer deep inside myself.

):

Outing with friends

Mean Machine AutoShow outing.

XD

Let the pictures do the talking.

The crew.

BMW NFS tuned

RX-8 NFS tuned

The third best bass around town

The second best bass around town

At last, the winner. I shall name it MOIS

Tambun seafood- Small kailan with salted fish

Tambun Seafood- Nestum prawn

Fuel - Recharge event

Fuel- Our table. Bacardi with Heinekens XD

我怕就怕　失望
其餘一切也不枉
所有代價　通通捨割
心血都流光
抹去害怕　撕掉稀罕
忘情才游到彼岸
我命裏鑽不出因果
真假如浮雲　天也在看

=）

Birthday parties

At last

i am here to update my blog

kinda busy these few days

XD

Lots and lots of birthdays during October

A short update here will say it all.

=)

1st birthday boy: Boo Teik aka Lagger Boo

Ocean Palm Suite Parkroyal

Another birthday boy: Ting Yao aka Lesbian

A view from the suite

Blurry. The Ship

Russian Chicken

Got a few pattern heavy XD enghong teawhy kassen yuzhe xiawei

Bose with iphone

Another october guy: Yongsheng aka Whyass

The drunk of the night : raymond XD

Combined birthday party at Dome

Chuen laughing when heard about Xue T*ng. XD

Ray poses with MX's camera

Happy birthday !

The only couple XD

All of the birthday boys that night x)

She's nothing like a girl you've ever seen before

Nothing you can compare to your neighbourhood hoe

I'm trying to find the words to describe this girl

Without being disrespectful

x]

Freaky Friday

Today is such a good day

XD

I woke up late

and went to teik's place late

We're supposed to go for dim sum

but there's no transport

at last we ended sitting his sister's car

and went for netcity

Soon after

my mummy came to pick us up

and dropped teik ys and teawhy back

Dinner at Starview

with family members

to celebrate the 20th anniversary XD

after that

NETCITY again

then conway

and coffee island at last

=P

hectic day

but it was fun

=)

SPM coming really soon

gotta study harder than ever

Days ahead may be hard

but

the Rainbow always come after the rain

=]

But i'm afraid

It's too late to apologize

It's too late

I say it's too late to apologize

x)

Best I Ever Had

I can still feel

the accident

I can still smell

the engine

I can still imagine

the faces of everyone

I am fine

I am bruised

but not injured

No worries.

As i said

its a phase of life

I shall be happy i faced it right now

and i had no injuries

GOD LOVES HERH

i know

and

HERH LOVES GOD too

My friends asked me

if i would still speed when i drive

I would like to reply

Speeding is not an option

Its a compulsory XD

but

i am really scared to get my friends involved.

Sorry to han wen

for getting your neck bruised.

=/

I say

You the fuc*ing best

You the fuc*ing best

=)

This is life

Life's unpredictable.

You may see me smiling today
but
you may also see me lying on a hospital bed tomorrow

To be informed
I met an accident
I felt so sorry
to those who sat in my car
especially
to Liang Chek

To take it as a lesson
and learn.
This is life.
Impossible is nothing.
=/

Meet me halfway

Those sleepless nights are over

I am better than ever

I felt so alive

I had been through harder times

These days may be hard

but it's not hard enough to bring me down

I woke up from a dream

a nightmare

This is it.

Everything's over.

Stick to my principles of my life

-Eat while you can

-Play while you can

-Sm**e while you can

-Dr**k while you can

-Enjoy while you can

This is me

This is myself

This is Herh

=)

Can you meet me halfway?

I can't go on further than this.

I want you so bad, it's my only wish

=]

Back to the old days

I love those good old days

where me and my friends

used to go snooker

and chill at sega.

=/

Friends

I'm back.

No more waiting to be back to this kind of life.

No more girlf's stuffs.

No more texting.

This is what i meant to be

=)

I'm not movin

I'm not movin

=]

A phase of life

The best way to end everything

is to

Forgive and Forget.

I am so happy now.

Idk why.

The feelings

its awesome.

I don't feel anything like missing someone.

Or loving someone.

I felt so free.

I felt i gone out of control.

I felt

REVIVED and ALIVE

Today was a good day

Tomorrow would be a better one.

=)

Appreciation

Appreciation

exists no more in my life.

When my hard work

my determination

doesn't earn me any compliments.

When my love

and the everything i gave in

doesn't earn me any appreciation.

What am i doing all these for?

People around me?

NO!

I do it for myself.

I don't need any appreciation, any compliments.

I don't need it anymore.

=/

Everything i can be

Everything you should be

That's why i need you here

So hear this now

Come home =)

Divine

I hide only to defy you
Take away the only love inside you
I see the face through everyone
Inside I've just begun!
You think I'm out to scare you
I'm only out to prepare you for when
you stop and turn around
Your body's going down!

You're gonna waste your time,
Your life will soon be mine,
You're definitely one of a kind, and
You're suffering 'cause of me, it's divine

Tell me why you never liked me
Tell me wht it is you fight me

(Tell me why, so you'll fight me)
Pull down and wait for the perfect time
to take what is rightfully
mine
You think they're dumb to defy me
You said you don't want to defy me
-You wait, to dumb run anyone (. .
.you don't want anyone)
Oh well. . .

You know what, Fuck you!
I'm fed up with you!
I'm not as good as you?!
Fuck no! I'm better than you!

Did you really think you'd
beat me at my own game?!
You try to see what you got
Me ripping at your brain!

Change

Changes

in our lives,

I had seen enough of it.

My friends,

my family members,

my loved ones.

People

don't change at our will.

They change at theirs.

I smiled,

I laughed,

and I know

I can do nothing to change them

Just live with it.

I don't wanna care anymore.

=/

Sacrifices

People around me used to tell me

'You need sacrifices to get what you want'

But to me,

sacrificing doesn't make any sense in my life.

When people doesn't appreciate your sacrifices

When your sacrifices doesn't help you in anything

You would find the word 'sacrifice' no where in your dictionary.

=/

It's Over

I sat down

looking through our pictures, movie tickets

My tears dropping one by one

I wiped it off

knowing i will have to be strong

to get over this

You are the one who's with me everytime

You're the one who share my everything with me

You're the one whom i had sacrificed a lot for

I believe there's a rainbow after the rain

I missed you through sleepless nights

I know its time to say goodbye

I know this relationship not gonna work anymore

Maybe a number of days

or a couple of weeks

or a few months

I'm going to leave out all the rest

I tell myself

I slapped myself

I cried

and I know

these times would be hard.

I showed cruelty to you

as i did to myself.

If i will have a final say about my love to you

I wouldn't say anything

because there's no words that can describe my love for you

So

we just let it be

Let the time pass

I'm sure

You and me

we will be fine.

I close my eyes

say my prayers to the god.

Hope that you will be fine and me either.

as you always said

ily and i always do.

This is the full stop of our relationship.

i love you and i really do

Random

Sometimes love comes around,

it knocks you down,

just get back up when it knocks you down.

It sounds like we are able to get up when love knocks someone down,

but it doesnt seems to be the same way as it was to be.

:]

Busy days

I am so busy these few days.

Studies.

Outings.

Tuitions.

And i am feeling like missing something in my life.

I just dont know what it is.

But i feel empty in me.

Maybe its just in my dreams or whatsoever.

Idk.

My feelings.

Its hard to be described.

Its just too confusing.

=/

I had been trying my best to show my smile everytime.

Even though i am not feeling good deep in me

Still i'll have smile it out.

Having problems in every way.

From love to studies.

I just dont know the way to face it.

That's why i managed everything of my own badly.

Maybe i should just stop doing so much.

Stop thinking too much.

Just let it be.

I'll be having a hotel stay/party tonight.

I'll be happy i told myself.

I'll try.

Leave everything to the god.

I did my best and god will do the rest for me.

=]

There's lots of friends asking me about my long distance relationship with her.

They gave loads of advices and some i disagreed.

One of them asked me to breakup since its so far.

I dont wanna breakup.

I dont feel like doing it,

I had been questioning my loyalty and my love to her.

I know i can do it.

But she's far and i cannot meet her often,

its hard.

the feeling its bad.

i dont know.

still ily

:]

I hope myself will get through all of these tough times and pray for good time ahead.

The BBQ of 5SC1

The BBQ of 5SC1

Too much to write about

Let the pictures do the talking

Tosai

Raymond The Organizer

Teik the Top Driver

Oasis where we had beer

Our food

Vain-ed XD

Just for someone =P

Teawhy

Jun Kit

Setting up BBQ. guided by ME

Jun Yik and Teik

Gay pose

Jason and Tatt

Yang Ray Davi

BBQ

Ray Jiek

Tatt say this emo

Fire burning

Raymond the Organizer

Everyone is siao

I was talking on phone with her

Its me =D